My between L5 and S1 vertebrae got injured

Today I got seriously damn back-pain. Just because of my mistake when I'm handling with one pail of water. Cracked! and it make me hard to walk, to lay down, sit and stand and etc. Astaghfirullah.. astaghfirullah.. I just thing this is the reminder from HIM for everything I've done. I pray for a forgiveness. I hope I can go through with this trials.

Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, "When (will come) the Help of Allah?" Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allah is near! [2:214]

When got this cracked thing, I just thing this just like as always. Because I had a series of back-pain. Not only this time. I had an accident when I was kid. My back was hardly hitting the concrete side of a drain. Since that I always had a back-pain. I thought it is not a serious problems. But then, when my friend tell her story I'm slowly getting worried about this pain. I do some research. Seeing a doctor. But theres no result until what was happen today. After that cracked, I just put on my back some hot oils (Minyak Hangat Afiat).

But after a few hours, it seems not gonna relieved. I can't move easily. When I sat, and want to stand up it is realy hurt. I cry because it is really hard for me. I call my 'pakcik' to bring me to hospital. I went to KPMC Puchong. Had a long talk with doc (forgot his name ∩_∩). Then got an X-Ray. After an X-Ray, all I could see is a serious face from the doc. He ask me to touch my feet. Seriously I can't do that. Before this it was so easy for me to do. Ohhh, I'm so afraid. From the X-Ray, doc had explained to me that my L5 and S1 had being so close. Supposed it's not like that.

Narrowed space between L5 and S1 vertebrae, indicating probable prolapsed intervertebral disc (Source:wikipedia)

Doctor had suggest me to get an MRI as soon as possible for my good sake. When it comes to MRI, I just afraid of one thing. My claustrophobia thingy! Seriously I'm easily hard to breath when I'm stuck in small room (elevator), a very long tunnel such like SMART tunnel (very long like never end..as for me ∩_∩). My niece had fainted in the MRI scanner. I don't know how its gonna happen when it comes to me.. (a very long sigh). 

You see the small space? all I can imagine is a coffin!  (Source:wikipedia)

Now I had to search which hospital had a good MRI services, good spine master practice. From my several friends experience, some of them had a surgery and some of them only get a physiotherapy. The doc advice my only go for physiotherapy, because i'm too young to go through with a surgery. Surgery is a last resort after all conservative treatments (non-surgical therapy) have been tried. I hope I only go for physiotherapy.


I'm still not telling about this thing to my parent. I don't want to make them worried especially my mother. I hope this gonna be better soon. I really pray for this. I've so many thing not done yet. I want go for pilgrimage to Mecca, being a wife, a mother and etc. InsyaAllah, HE will help. 

 Sufficient for us is Allah , and [He is] the best Disposer of affairs.[3:173]

P/S: This post to make my English gone be better.. still practicing.